The best way to feel less alone? Keep yourself alone.

Don't even look at the lives of other people. If you're fine, don't even try looking at others' "eventful" lives (even if it's simply studying with another mate) Basically, drown yourself in your own activities and forget about communicating with others. Force yourself to like your current situation. Shut yourself out until you can't take it anymore. That's when you're truly feeling alone and empty. At least you've fully exploited the enjoyment you can have out of being alone.

Or try hard to wait for someone/people and realise there's actually nobody out there all the time. Both methods tried and tested. Since the outcome is still the same, the disgustingly optimistic approach makes more sense. Just a warning, you might feel lost halfway through the first one.

In other words, have no expectations. ZILCH. Only for people like me. If you're

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Don't be desperate to fill your empty life with things to make it seem less empty. Keep lying to yourself, keep trying to fight the emptiness and fall even harder in the future.

I hate reaching out to others for fear that they wouldn't respond, or responding for the sake of it. It normally happens. You know what makes me feel better about everybody leaving in the end? The fact that it's just something about me and I'll have to accept it. Somehow it works.

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Nobody really bothers to ask anymore. Always the backup plan. Good thing there's art to complete at home so I wouldn't be able to go out anyway. Don't know if I should be glad it's ending soon. Less excuses to be busy with art, more reasons to find out I'm actually just the backup. Yay.